昇華

這幾年我們的愛情漸漸到了一個地步，不會容易懷疑對方對自己的愛，也不會隨便懷疑自己對對方的重要性。或者其實進步的只有我，他一向對我無限信心，從來不憂慮，從來不擔心，根本不需要進步。

我對愛情很缺信心，本著"基本上所有男人都是壞人"的心態，從來不太相信有好男人。我覺得有七成以上的男人，有女人貼過來，只要是還可以的，都會出軌。徹頭徹尾我都覺得男人是不可靠的。

莫生常說我心理有點問題，不論是不是，原則上要我相信一個男人在愛情上對我忠貞，著實不容易。有時我也會想可能這些年來他在外面有過別人，只是我沒有發現，到我發現了會怎樣呢？不是他有任何做錯事的跡象，只是我總會胡思亂想。

所以愛我是很辛苦的吧，無論有多愛我，有多專一，還是要忍耐我的無理取鬧。

到底為甚麼我不能相信男人的愛情？為甚麼我缺乏會有人很愛很愛我的自信？從何時起我對愛情的期望薄如紙片，我真的不太清楚。

我跟醫生說過，若我離開莫生，不會找到另一個愛我的人了。醫生說不可能，但我到現在還是相信。

不過有沒有另外的人愛我其實也不太要緊吧，至少我的他已經對我好到叫我愈來愈相信有對愛情一生一世的男人。這也是一種感情的昇華吧。

IIS

Want to kill my IIS!!!!!

Weird...

Comment count of the previous post disappears or displays incorrectly, what so special about the post made that happens?

祖祖給我的禮物

	好Cool哦~好喜歡!!!!!媽在車上形容說像隻蛋，我還以為像"他媽"那麼小的，現在見到這麼大，真好!
只是有一點問題，看著這謎樣的插：
和這謎樣的插card位：
令我這個hardware白痴摸不著頭腦 --- 到底怎樣吧相放進電腦呢？!

I am at the airport right now...

Guess what, I am at the airport right now, waiting for my parents and brother. Finally we can access internet for free in the airport, what a surprise of the century! Though I think this is temporarily supported by Samsung, well, well, promotion. Weird that not many people are keen to serve on net whle waiting for their friends or relatives. Computer is not too inetersting for most of the Kiwi, maybe.

I hate the keyboard though, it's squashed! I keep typing wrong characters because keys except alphabets are not in normal size. A keyboard that you must watch what you've typed.

By the way, it's definitely originated from Korea, coz I can see korean on this keyboard... not very user friendly, should have chinese characters instead.

The "mouse" is not a mouse, it's a ball at the top right corner of the keyboard and two buttons (left & right clicks) at the top left. So basically a mouse require you use 2 hands to use. Weird.

Alright, guess they are coming out soon.