Bad day

It's a terrible day for me. Council, Watercare, engineers, client, Joe, the team, work... all giving me hard time. I am mentally exhausted. And I am rushing on some development and integration work these few days. So tiring... who cares about those people who misunderstand me always but so far away from me? I don't even have time to deal with all the stuff here. Poor Caelum not getting enough attention from his ma ma.

I miss my little prince. I need him here...

求次

有時退而求次未必是壞事。若是凡事只選一或零，任何中間的可能也不要，往往吃虧的是自己吧。所以就算沒有達到完全完整的明白，只是部分扭曲了的理解，總好過和明白離十萬九千里遠。縱然我還是帶著一點不安分，為沒有真的弄清楚而失望，但也提醒自己有時委屈的退而求次不是壞事，也不奢望有天真的會清楚知道。

真相大概永遠被遺忘，也只好作罷，難保真相表露更使人難堪。

Amazing Grace

Sometimes God really works in some very interesting way that I find it hard to believe - I mean, too good, so good that it seems so unreal! I am so glad and so pleased.

I prayed for them today. No, nothing about the complex story between them and me. I purely prayed for their hearts to be comforted and for their souls to be strong. I also prayed they will be relieved from anger, guilt and blame. I admit that I was too worry about myself and probably wasn't praying for the right things till today. This is the first time since she passed away that I totally put myself down and solely prayed for their goods.

Then God worked in a miraculous way, which was so out of my expectation, completely blew my mind.

Thank you so much.

一人

這個房間的天花板貼滿了夜光星，雖然脫下眼鏡的我看得不太清楚，而且貼了十多年的星星也光不了多久，但看著還是有一點感動：年輕過的證據。

昨晚睡眠只是一般，今晚早點上床。也有別的原因：美國和法國不停攻打我的俄國，有點興味索然。

明天又是上班天，並進入分開一個月的倒數。怎可能不掛念呢？再加上肚皮裡有着Caelum，當然想他在左右了。但也無所謂啦，凡事有比較重要和比較不重要的，又不是現在就要出世，時間還准許。

夜裡總是流鼻水呢。

Where are my shoes?!

This is so weird! I cannot find my purple shoes which I have been wearing all the time! Where are my purple shoes? It's so so weird! How can a pair of shoes that big and obvious disappeared from the house? There are only two places they can be: in the garage or at the door, and they are in none of these two areas! Little-prince bought me this pair of shoes last time he went back to HK! Where are they now? I have been wearing them every week at least once! And now they just mysteriously gone?! How could that even possible?! They are the most obvious shiny pair if shoes!