假裝

有時候不知，就是要假裝；有時候明知，還是要假裝。這個世界存在著不能揭示的事情。真相破壞已擁有的和諧，而我們又承受不起。

Ignore

I have been avoiding to face the conflict all these times by totally ignoring the situation and the person, even it means I am doing this in a completely awkward and obvious and impolite way. I do not believe this will eventually be resolved and I doubt I do want it to be resolved.

I am being naive and stupid, maybe. Yet I have to continue because I cannot think of a better way. Maybe there are better ways, but those are not what I am willing to do.

Sometimes I still have bad dreams about this. Full of hate. Not mentioning that in real life does not stop my emotional feelings. Time has not dissolve the issue.

It's not about anyone else, it's only about what has been done to me. And no, I never want to hear any explanations nor excuses - not saying there's anyone wanted to give one.

一個週末

這樣的一個週末竟是如此悏意。

星期六早上我倆和Caelum小鬼頭走了舊Howick一趟。Caelum很喜歡在外邊，行在大街上，看看狗，看看人。

後來一家大細到了新居。我們和屋主約好了，他們交待有甚麼要留意。他們是很好的人，我們已到過新居幾次談大大小小的事情。男主人是高要求的，又凡事井井有條。

午後和小鬼頭一起去看看傢俱，他當是去遊樂園般。又和他去mothercare，純粹是讓他免費玩些玩具而已。他也很高興。

回家讓他睡個午覺後又外出和姑丈賀生日。夜晚帶Caelum出街總是最辛苦的。孩子都沒甚麼耐性。這一晩他已經算是乖的了。

星期日如常到教會，又如常和大家一起去吃午飯 - 如常是幸福的，上星期Caelum就令我們不能有這「如常」了。不過我還是寧願在某個家裏吃午飯，暫時會方便些。

下午Caelum的契爺和師公來到家裏。說下玩下又幾小時。師公彈ukulele給Caelum聽，小鬼頭當然很喜歡。自Caelum出世以來我們許久沒一起坐著聊這麼長，難得Caelum又不吵吵嚷嚷。果然還是在家好。

夜晚Gary和Serah來探望。Gary不停的黏著Caelum不放，哈哈。他們還看了Caelum洗澡呢。小鬼頭常笑，逗得他倆很是歡喜。

好一個和諧的週末。

Aus Zealand

Haven written a blog for so long. I have been too busy at work and at home looking after Caelum. Today I have a little bit of time… actually no, I mean I just want to be lazy for a short while.

It’s London Olympic 2012 at the moment. Australia’s medal count is still low but basically they have secured the gold in 49ers so they will come upon New Zealand very soon – sad but true, ha. Nevertheless, the “Aus Zealand” thing is still too funny to be forgotten.

From The Media Machine Blog:

The Daily Telegraph has taken Australia’s obsession with gold (and beating New Zealand) to new and embarrassing heights.

In today’s Tele medal Tally (page 72) it creates a new country AUS ZEALAND that ranks as number nine, beating out North Korea in 10th place. This new country AUS ZEALAND has four gold, 12 silver and 11 bronze.

The official medal tally according to The Australian’s coverage actually has Australia in 24th place with one gold, 12 silver and seven bronze. Our neighbours New Zealand are cruising ahead in 14th place with three gold and four bronze.

Already MSN NZ sports Facebook fan page (which has 26, 477 likes) has lampooned us saying “Aus Zealand - The red-faced Aussies are trying to combine their Olympic medal haul with ours” and it brings to mind Andrew Denton and the cast of Live and Sweaty’s classic “I don’t care as long as we beat New Zealand”.

If you don’t succeed, just mess with the figures.

Since when New Zealand is no longer a country? O the imaginary place Aus Zealand.