長大

家中的小男孩每天長大一點，愈發有自己的主見。譬如要自己走不要抱、要自己樓梯上二樓、要自己拿叉匙吃東西、要自己試穿鞋襪。。。。。。畢竟年紀尚少，只會把襪搭在腳上而已。

我曾以為我不喜歡孩子，現在又怕小子長得太快，不要媽媽了。

CAELUM

雖然都幾貴，不過還能買到完全一樣串法的實在是難得，所以小王子最後決定買回來。現在是我們用，將來才給Caelum吧。

Caelum's one year old birthday party

Yesterday was Caelum's birthday! We had a great party with more than 40 people in our new house - amazing! He was a bit sick but still a good boy. He was showing off his new walking skill and felt very happy when people clapped after his performance.

Food made by mum and Stephen was nice and cake was pretty and rich.

One year already!

Home chef

Recently Nick loves cooking. Well, lucky me. :D

Memories

When I think about it... a little bit sad, that I cannot see anything on it anymore. It's one thing when there is nothing new, but it's a different feeling when it's no longer available.

This made me think a bit more about... the past and the present. Life keeps changing. Maybe now is the best time. Maybe the distance is at its best length.

Big part of me just miss that though. Big part of me wants to go back into a state of unstableness.

I keep remember one specific night.

If that's not love, what is?

New home

Finally our new house was settled. No we haven't moved in yet. Tomorrow KL the van driver will help us move the bigger stuff in. Nick has already moved all the smaller stuff to the new house yesterday.

Soon this will become our new home.

Caelum likes it too.

P.S. definitely have room for Ning to stay. :P

假裝

有時候不知，就是要假裝；有時候明知，還是要假裝。這個世界存在著不能揭示的事情。真相破壞已擁有的和諧，而我們又承受不起。

Ignore

I have been avoiding to face the conflict all these times by totally ignoring the situation and the person, even it means I am doing this in a completely awkward and obvious and impolite way. I do not believe this will eventually be resolved and I doubt I do want it to be resolved.

I am being naive and stupid, maybe. Yet I have to continue because I cannot think of a better way. Maybe there are better ways, but those are not what I am willing to do.

Sometimes I still have bad dreams about this. Full of hate. Not mentioning that in real life does not stop my emotional feelings. Time has not dissolve the issue.

It's not about anyone else, it's only about what has been done to me. And no, I never want to hear any explanations nor excuses - not saying there's anyone wanted to give one.

一個週末

這樣的一個週末竟是如此悏意。

星期六早上我倆和Caelum小鬼頭走了舊Howick一趟。Caelum很喜歡在外邊，行在大街上，看看狗，看看人。

後來一家大細到了新居。我們和屋主約好了，他們交待有甚麼要留意。他們是很好的人，我們已到過新居幾次談大大小小的事情。男主人是高要求的，又凡事井井有條。

午後和小鬼頭一起去看看傢俱，他當是去遊樂園般。又和他去mothercare，純粹是讓他免費玩些玩具而已。他也很高興。

回家讓他睡個午覺後又外出和姑丈賀生日。夜晚帶Caelum出街總是最辛苦的。孩子都沒甚麼耐性。這一晩他已經算是乖的了。

星期日如常到教會，又如常和大家一起去吃午飯 - 如常是幸福的，上星期Caelum就令我們不能有這「如常」了。不過我還是寧願在某個家裏吃午飯，暫時會方便些。

下午Caelum的契爺和師公來到家裏。說下玩下又幾小時。師公彈ukulele給Caelum聽，小鬼頭當然很喜歡。自Caelum出世以來我們許久沒一起坐著聊這麼長，難得Caelum又不吵吵嚷嚷。果然還是在家好。

夜晚Gary和Serah來探望。Gary不停的黏著Caelum不放，哈哈。他們還看了Caelum洗澡呢。小鬼頭常笑，逗得他倆很是歡喜。

好一個和諧的週末。

Aus Zealand

Haven written a blog for so long. I have been too busy at work and at home looking after Caelum. Today I have a little bit of time… actually no, I mean I just want to be lazy for a short while.

It’s London Olympic 2012 at the moment. Australia’s medal count is still low but basically they have secured the gold in 49ers so they will come upon New Zealand very soon – sad but true, ha. Nevertheless, the “Aus Zealand” thing is still too funny to be forgotten.

From The Media Machine Blog:

The Daily Telegraph has taken Australia’s obsession with gold (and beating New Zealand) to new and embarrassing heights.

In today’s Tele medal Tally (page 72) it creates a new country AUS ZEALAND that ranks as number nine, beating out North Korea in 10th place. This new country AUS ZEALAND has four gold, 12 silver and 11 bronze.

The official medal tally according to The Australian’s coverage actually has Australia in 24th place with one gold, 12 silver and seven bronze. Our neighbours New Zealand are cruising ahead in 14th place with three gold and four bronze.

Already MSN NZ sports Facebook fan page (which has 26, 477 likes) has lampooned us saying “Aus Zealand - The red-faced Aussies are trying to combine their Olympic medal haul with ours” and it brings to mind Andrew Denton and the cast of Live and Sweaty’s classic “I don’t care as long as we beat New Zealand”.

If you don’t succeed, just mess with the figures.

Since when New Zealand is no longer a country? O the imaginary place Aus Zealand.

Little cub

I can foresee Caelum saying this to me…

Some past never past

There exist things that are too painful to revisit in our minds.

So I have chosen not to mention or read anything about them anymore.

Sometimes I still dream about some part of these in a raging way. Make me think whether I really have so much hate in me. But you said, my hate came from my love and it’s okay to say I am not okay.

I think I am okay though. I do not feel anything not okay at all. Just, from time to time, bad dreams remind me my hatred deep inside that is not resolved.

家庭遊

Taupo之旅乃是Caelum第一次去旅行，到外邊住宿了兩晚。第一晚他很乖，但我失眠；第二晚我很累很想睡，他又睡得不穩。

天氣非常晴朗。我們都很高興。

第二天幫灰色的小熊照了許多相呢！他在遊樂場樂不思蜀，在寒冷的天氣底下仍不願離開。

這次幸好有我爸媽一起去，可輪流看Caelum。

Remind me of you

Nearly everyday when I drive to work I see this man either at the bus stop or walking towards the bus stop. He looks a bit like you. Hmm, not exactly, he looks like you when you were younger and fatter.

Was it 2001? Was it? It's January right? The 26th? To be honest I do not have vivid memory of the date, but the day, that moment, I do remember.

Now he's a scientist, and we have a lovely child.

Miss you.

My men

It was Caelum's papa's birthday yesterday. On the same day we had our child dedication ceremony for Caelum. Both of them had dressed up smart yesterday. Caelum's hair was naturally nice and smooth too. Surprise, surprise.

The two men I love.

Thank God for everything.

Superstar

Listening to Jesus Christ Superstar on the way from Auckland to Matamata this morning and now from Matamata to Auckland. One of my favourite musicals. Not my car, not me driving, not my CDs.

If you are familiar with the musical as well as your bible, you will know which part is biblical base, which part is historical and cultural base, which part is speculation, which part is imagination. The musical have layout and setup the scenes very well. The lyrics and music are superb. You can get the ignorance, the misunderstanding, the hate, the pain, the darkness and sadness, the irony, the heartbroken... all from hearing it.

Touch my nerves every time.

開心啲

開心的小朋友叫媽媽要開心。

The bright side

As I was complaining about my life and all these tiring things happening around me, God has decided to give a way out now as it seemed to be not so bearable for me anymore. As usual he didn't give me any more than what I should have, but enough for me so I don't have to worry. And the better part is: unconditional and quick settlement. Id est do not need to worry anything anymore and will be done soon.

One less thing on my shoulder now. Now I am a bit more energetic to visit Matamata tomorrow.

Life is not as bad as I thought now!

Me tired

I am so tired... of everything. Work, selling house... I want a break from all these, but quite stuck at the moment. Basically sick of life. Nevertheless the thing about being sick is one day you should get better. I am just waiting for the day.

Until the day, this is what keep me going on...

I just want to go home and see Caelum now.

又一天

驟晴驟雨，典型的奧克蘭天氣。

想無憂。很難。

選擇

如果喜歡上一個沒有結果的人，該說出來還是一直沉默的好？

想起朋友說的一件事而已。

又，是堅持容易，還是放棄容易？

把祕密對著洞裡說一遍，然後藏起來。

永遠永遠。

部份

人生滿是失望和悵然若失的事情，然而那也是生存的一部份。沒有這樣的失落，也不代表完美。

對著使人惆悵的事情，我開始看開了。塞翁失馬，焉知非福。命裡的事，乃命定的事，隨緣也好。

想得太好才會接受不了。

First Mother's Day as a mother

Today is the first Mother's Day since I have become a mother.

Yesterday Nicholas bought me some flowers. He said Caelum told him to buy me flower before he fell asleep.

I hope next year Caelum would understand what is Mother's Day!

Caelum's first swimming class

Today Caelum had his first swimming class. Before the class we went into the kid pool with Caelum. He liked it very much when I hit the water with my hands and made some sounds.

Then we had the swimming lesson. It's quite a bit of exercise for me actually. Caelum was not afraid but very serious and concentrated. I think he enjoyed it.

Although they say the water babies classes are from six months old, Caelum was the youngest. Other kids are at least a year old. It's good to start early though.

It was fun to swim with Caelum. :)

Conditional clause: Contrary to fact

If it was for me, I would be glad.

Feeding

I usually feed Caelum the first and the last bottle of milk. It's difficult in the morning because I want to sleep more, and difficult at night because sometimes he doesn't want to eat. Nevertheless those are some really good times.

Tonight I fed him with his last bottle, and now he's sleeping next to me. Yes, very bad, he's a but clingy recently.

Bathing

Every night I bathe Caelum before his last bottle of milk. Caelum really likes playing in water.

Baby when can you bathe yourself so I don't have to be the only one that can do that every night? :P

New home

Waiting for the LIM...

New ukulele

Got my first 30th birthday present yesterday! It's from my dearest cousin and her boyfriend. Posted from Hong Kong, arrived on time!

Very cute ukulele! I am going to tune it today and play it to Caelum! Love it!

Hurt

You were right, I was hurt.

I thought about it again in the shower from the beginning. I was angry not just about that twist, but also, before that, when I needed someone, and I thought she's the one on my side, she has chosen to tell him that "if you had told me before I would not let her know". She was not on my side from day one. Maybe it was a way to get close to them in expense of me. I immediately concluded I cannot trust a person like that. Twisted my words and telling people a completely different story made me angry, but that's after trust had sailed away. Oh yeah, and the facebook statuses.

And no, both of us know I can never pretend nothing has happened anymore.

I was surprised that you point to the very reason of my feeling and attitude. Other people probably think it's because of something else, or someone else. No, I was never that considerate for other people's business. It's actually about I, me and myself.

20th January 2010.

I was just reading the other blog. The dialogue I copied. I reread it. And, sorry all I have in mind is hate and despise.

Family

Another family dinner... well you know what I mean.

Headache.

Caelum over 6 months old.…

Last night Nick and I left home for dinner without saying bye bye to Caelum. He found out we were missing, and cried non stop even though grandpa and grandma were there. Cried so hard then fell asleep. Woke up, slowly remembered we were not there, cried again, even cried in dinner time and didn’t want to eat. Grandpa took him out of the house and told him we were really not there, then he was unhappy but kinda stopped. I called and mum told me, so I video call them on my iphone. Caelum was not crying at first, but once he saw me on the screen and realised it’s me, he frowned and started crying again. Till we got home, hugged him, he’s back to his normal smiling face.

Funny boy, started to know parents are here or not here.

We have dressed him up for Nick’s brother wedding on Saturday. Caelum was very handsome, haha.

行為藝術。。。

。。。有時不明其所以然。

Home

I love you. I have chosen you and took you to become ours in three days. Now it's time to find someone else to love you and take care of you.

Just some random thoughts...

• "Willingness" is one damn hard thing to pretend you have. "Interest" is the other.


• The "don't bother" attitude is not good enough in some human interactions and relationships.


• Expectation usually leads to depression.


• Bad memory sometimes make your life and others' lives easier.


• It's hard to say whether divorce is worse or stick together but hate each other is worse.


• Being too blessed make you forget how blessed you are.


• It's never too late to end a friendship if the "friend" basically presume you are dumb or ignorant.


• It's not always about money but 210 millions USD is still good to have.


• MacBook Air is good for reading comics. Also promising battery life.

Caelum is 6 months today

Happy 6 months old, my little man. I wanted to throw a party for him, but idea got rejected by daddy and grandma. So we have to do this when he's one year old I guess. ;)

Love you sweetie. Can't believe it's already half a year!

A treat

My new colourful coffee cup.

Papa Wong's Bakery

Stephen can make really good desserts. It's a bit of a waste that he works in our industry - he should have gone to follow his passion. Here is the Baked Alaska and Banoffee Pie. The only thing went wrong was the Banoffee Pie is a bit too sweet for me.

Stephen has started blogging about his cooking life: Papa Wong's Bakery. Go and learn how to make a chocolate mini Happy Meal!

Caelum牛同學

晩飯後外出散步，見風有點急，微涼，便給Caelum穿上厚一點的牛衣。由我們家走到爸媽的家，他們急不及待的要抱抱Caelum。雖然每天都見面，公公婆婆還是一見就爭相要抱呢 -- 細路，你真係幸福。

我依然每天說許多次他很可愛，Caelum的爸說我痴線，日日讚自己的孩子。我說要襯他聽得明白之前說多幾遍，因為聽得明白就不說了，怕他囂張。

萬千寵愛在一身。

都記下來

人們都很善忘，而我卻總是記得太多太多。

不夠善忘是缺點，因為別人會覺得你小器。比別人更記得他們的過去則很尷尬，因為別人未必想記得起。

不夠善忘，一些感情很難捨棄，總是在與過去的千絲萬縷糾纏不清。不論是愛是恨，都放不了手。是要多久的時間又怎樣的契機才能把一件事情或一份感覺歸納為「已成過去」呢？

忘了，忘不了。

Kaleidoscope II

Kaleidoscope

Last time I bought a kaleidoscope from Napier. Yes, finally, I bought a kaleidoscope for myself. Will take a photo of it and post it here later.

I love kaleidoscope. There's always something magical about it makes me happy and attracts me.

Now I have one.

Obsession

For some I-know-what reason, my mind is pondering on the word "obsession" tonight, at the moment, when I am in bed.

I thought to myself: I know obsession so well. I know everything about obsession. I have experienced every bit of obsession. And I have been obsessed with my obsessions. Never be able to give up and never willing to give up - that's how obsession works.

Very well.

師父生日

有個男人想結婚。 他有三個合適的人選。
三個女人都很漂亮，他不知選哪個好。
於是他給每個女人五千塊錢，看她們怎麼用這筆錢。

第一個女人去spa美容院，又買了衣服鞋子飾物，打扮得漂漂亮亮的去找他。
「我愛你，所以我希望做你眼中最美麗的女人............」女人說。
男人聽了覺得很感動。

第二個女人，把五千塊全拿去買了禮物送給這個男人。
「我愛你，我願意為你花盡我所有的財產............」
男人聽了又是一陣感動。

第三個女人呢，把五千塊錢投資股票，一忽會兒就連本帶利的賺了回來。
她將五千塊錢還給男人，然後開了個與男人聯名的戶口把下剩的錢存進去。
「我愛你，所以我要為我們的未來努力............」
男人聽了，當然也很感動。

他把三個女人的做法仔仔細細的想了一遍.................

最後，他娶了..................................

胸部最大的那個。

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在師父生日這天看見這篇轉載，實在是太合適了。

師父生日快樂，兩食好嘢。 XD

因Caelum要睡覺，我們八點十五分左右就退場了。

朋友XY之二

結果X和Y離婚收場，賣樓，回各自的家吧。我想起了謝安琪的＜囍帖街＞。縱然對Wyman無好感，有些歌還是非常上心。

忘掉砌過的沙　
回憶的堡壘　剎那已倒下
面對這墳起的荒土　
你註定學會瀟灑
階磚不會拒絕磨蝕
窗花不可幽禁落霞
有感情　就會一生一世嗎
又再惋惜有用嗎

忘掉愛過的他
當初的喜帖金箔印著那位他
裱起婚紗照那道牆及一切美麗舊年華
明日同步拆下
忘掉有過的家　
小餐枱沙發雪櫃及兩份紅茶
溫馨的光境不過借出到期拿回嗎
等不到下一代　是嗎

Blanky

The one important thing that I didn't bring to Napier was my blanky. Dr. J asked me about my blanky after he knew, like since when do I have a blanky, is it always the same one, do I need to buy exactly the same one when the old one is too old, etc. the truth is, I am not that picky. Or say, I am not that OCD. I do need a blanky to sleep well and it has to be the blanky I hold onto every night. Nevertheless from time to time I change my blanky when one becomes too old and need to be thrown away. All I need is some overlapping time, having both with me until I get used to the new one. Also, they don't have to have the same size nor colour. I just need the blanky to have certain type of texture. It's all about the touching feeling. I probably have five or six different blankies already since I was born. This is my current blanky:

Not too big, very handy, I can bring it everywhere I go. It's true that I do not sleep tight without it. I guess it's just the same thing as some people need to sleep with their own pillows. I love my blanky, and not ashamed of having one. :P

Away from home

On my way to Napier. I am not sure whether I have been to Napier before but there's no memory of this place in my mind. Apparently it is the Art Deco capital of the world. Let's check it out. I will be staying in the Art Deco Masonic Hotel tonight. From the name I can imagine it would look a bit old.

This is the very first day I left Caelum and Nick for a night since Caelum was born. I still have taken pictures of my boy today, early in the morning at a quarter to six. I won't see them till tomorrow evening and this is the first time i don't see Caelum for a night. Hmm guess i will video call them later.

Everytime I go on trip i would think that I should have bought the 11 or 13 inch MacBook Air with i7 and extra 4GB RAM and Windows installed. It would be so handy. Yet everytime after the trip I think it is too expensive and put the idea off. This time I may just make up my mind. Will see.

拍賣

今天去了樓宇拍賣會，買不到我想要那間房子，也不緊要，反正我是不急的，又不是沒地方住，又不是真的很想搬。

從未去過樓宇拍賣，這是第一次。去的途中我想起了唯一的拍賣經驗，那就是荔園的拍賣。「一蚊底價」，總是吸引了不少大小朋友，好不熱鬧。賣的有玩具，也有家電，爸爸和孩子都喜歡。

今天的拍賣雖然人多，卻沒有荔園那種氣氛呢。。。

Tiredness

Feeling exhausted... No nothing special had happened today, but I am just feeling very tired. When one is tired, everything seems to be hard. Caelum was being a difficult boy tonight as well.

Tiredness is causing my mood go down hill. Let me sleep for an hour before 11pm, when I have to wake up and feed the boy.

Tu

De eo cogito. Nunc nihil me finire potest est. Eum videre volo. Animus tui esse cum me etiamsi corpus tui non est.

Mala sum.

XVI之解說

本來XVI有下一半故事，以「我每天往這間咖啡店買一杯可可」開始。然後序述當事人怎樣選擇、跟蹤並研究每一次的目標人物，到最後拿到目標的漂亮的眼球為止。可可使他放心，繼而進行當天的計劃。

想了一下，為免有人以為我變態，打消了這個念頭。

就當是浪漫的憧憬好了。

無題 XVI

每天早上他都會來買一杯可可，我總會假裝若無其事的親自把可可遞給他，而他謝了接過後總會在踏出門前呷一口。我每天看著他步出店外的身型，回味那一句謝謝，猜想他下一刻往何處。

不喝咖啡喝可可的男人不多，雖說因為這而喜歡上他好像在點膚淺，但實在要承認和喝可可脫不了干係。

手上沒有戒指，大概未結婚？每個早上也來，大概是很有規律的人？到咖啡店不怕奇怪的要可可，大概是有點孩子氣吧？沒有穿西裝，大概不是寫字樓的工作？幾條牛仔褲都穿舊了，大概是不太喜歡改變的人？頭髮凌亂，大概性格有點散漫？從來未見過他帶太陽眼鏡，大概是誠實的人？雙手拿可可杯喝，大概有點神經質呢？

我每天留意他多一點，想著他是怎樣的人。想著想著，就喜歡上了。

想起廣川

到底不太認識一個人的話可不可以算得上「喜歡」？不可以的話那要有多認識才可以呢？每次想到類似的問題，我也不其然想起但丁和庇亞翠絲。那當然是一個非常極端的例子。

這一次我想得更遠，從但丁想到了廣川先生。這麼多年，廣川先生說西原的話還是敲擊著我的心，依然叫我慚愧。我竟是那樣的不長進。

三蒲綾子真是我的偶像。

Amor

Had a conversation with a dude the other day, suddenly, out of a boring work day, I pondered on several things again, and talked to Stephan(ie) about some.

Relationship is a hard eh. You fall in love, you break up, then you have to either move on or stay heart broken. Who is “the one”? Or there can be ones? Is “the one” a changeable factor? So you move on, you find another one to be “the one”. Actually, I don’t believe there is one and only one. The more I live and see on this world, the more I realise there is more than one person in the world could fit you. There’s more than one person in the world you can develop relationship with and fall in love with each other.

Would there be people you know definitely it’s a “no”? Ya… I have to agree with this one. Actually, versa vice, there are people you would know it’s a definite “yes”. Doesn't mean it will work out for sure, and doesn’t mean you fall in love in first sight, yes you know it’s a “yes” if one party has decided to make a move. There are people, no matter how long they know each other, no spark at all; but there are people, always, have something between them, that is too obvious to ignore. Sometimes, a definite “yes” is a problem too.

See love is a difficult issue.

No wonder guys around me keep saying there’s no point for them to find a girlfriend. They can do more when they are single, like spending money, cooking (alright this is just one guy), get drunk… although I think part of these sayings is because they do not have someone. :P

Oh well.

The laughing boy

Caelum is a happy boy… most of the time. Sometimes he cries too, but in general he’s happy. Now he knows how to laugh although he does not do that very often. So cute. I have watched these so many times already, haha, stupid mama.

龍年始

農曆新年。Caelum仔在公公婆婆處拿到了利是。對我們來說農曆新年只是平常的一天，沒有假，繼續上班，也不會有甚麼新年氣氛。只是呢，天氣這麼的好，我竟要在這裡上班，有點意難平呢，哈哈。

龍年，許多人都想生龍仔龍女，雖然我不知道為甚麼。我這裡有隻兔仔了。。。看他肖兔尚且這麼惡，要是肖龍還不欺負我更甚！還好。其實我屬狗，在家裡該是最惡的了。就如我跟小王子說，Caelum不可以是小霸王，因為他娘親才可以是小霸王，呵呵。

Caelum的第一個新年，還未懂作「恭喜」的手勢，下年吧。

0067

00 and 67 got married last night. So we said now "3 down (me, May, Annie), 3 to go (Hilda, Gigi, Johnny)".

It was a good day although weather was bad. I brought Caelum to the bride's home in the morning. So he had participated in the event. Then I sent him to my parents place because the dinner would be too late for him. Caelum enjoyed the morning with all these beautiful bridesmaids and sisters, smiled to everyone who came to talk to him.

Annie was very pretty. Well the bride is always the prettiest on the wedding day. I do not know Richard well because he's mostly in Fiji and they met in University. During University Gigi and Annie have their commerce etc friend circles that Hilda and I not very close with. Hilda probably knows them better as she's Annie's cousin and they do hang out sometimes.

It's good. Its good. Brought back so much memories. Ah the old days.

失戀了無謂痴情

A和B分了手，長達十二年的感情就這樣完結，算不上是和平，因為一方還是不能接受。

這次真的是結束了。

最近有好些人也墮入這樣的慣性，和多年的情人分手。無論是說分手還是被拋棄的一方，有些很爽快的找到了別人，短期內談婚論嫁。或者經歷了一段很長的關係，反而發現在一起許久才結婚不是一件好事，又或者比較清楚自己想要的是甚麼了。到我們這個年紀，已不能隨隨便便為愛情而拍拖吧？

不期然我想起了另外三個人。直到現在我還是不知道該怎樣看待整件事情，也不知道該怎樣處理和這些人的關係。如果甚麼都和我沒關係倒好，偏偏卻是千絲萬縷，還要是永遠逃不掉的糾纏。

我總是那樣放不開的。

多想有人告訴我該怎樣想才好。

即使衷心相愛結局不要問
即使他一走了再無人想吻
就當早生百年 他哪曾識你
你會很甘心

即使將他封最愛亦不要恨
一般都得不到
正如亦舒說 做到生子結婚
終須都與較平凡那位至會襯

現實還是公平 太耀眼激情 亦如即興
下個季節 轉心境 得到了原是虛榮
求他採星星都答應 但誰保證
難受為了太好勝

失戀可將工作放大得決絕
光陰怎花可看見
林夕都說 別怨心底滴血
專心工作過勞才有資格吐血

他走了解封了 得到了某些損失某些總要
試驗難得的寂寥 未必天天要燃燒

殘酷現實還是公平 太耀眼激情 亦如即興
下個季節 轉心境
失戀了無謂痴情
人開心傷心講慣性 若憑悟性
定能夠有 更高的戀愛本領

現實還是公平 有他約定見證
便會害怕失約的震驚
他不愛沒法講情
和他講分手不掃興 換來尊敬
未圓滿愛情也雋永