Hide me

I have removed all my blog feed subscription except S and the Tse's family. I don't care about other people who I used to be interested in anymore. I am going to disable my site feed too, some days in the near future. And, may make viewing my blog require blogger login.

Here is no longer gypsy's secret place. Maybe it never was. All of a sudden I hate myself and dislike others. I don't want people who don't understand anyway to see what's in me and I don't care about them at all.

I want to be able to say "I am angry or "I am upset" here, or even "I want to die", without being questioned with misinterpretation.

Hate me

You either catch the moment, or you lose it.

If you lose it, then you either regret that you lose it, or glad that you didn't catch it.

I got two chances. The first one was too quick, I didn't make up my mind. Have ages for the second one, I couldn't make up my mind.

I blew both.

Even though the you I want was not the you you are.

Isn't that always the case.

find the shed

I am upset and I want to hide.

I am considering to hide.

吹皺一池春水

說是這樣的說，然而為免有人付出多餘的憂慮或關心，我還是說清楚，我不是真的很生氣，至少現在不是了。

要說討厭的，其實是殿下永遠都不明白自己做錯些甚麼，也不明白我幹嗎生氣，甚至一味在毫不理解下認定我是無理取鬧，並且不自覺地誤導身邊的親朋戚人認為我霸道驕恣，還要絲毫不覺自己製造了這樣的錯覺。也不知說他天真好，還是氣他沒心肝好。不過我也習慣了，亦無需向別人解釋，橫豎這些人不會明白。在這裡說明只是以防有人過份關注，走來查詢我們吵了些甚麼架；殊不知我們常有此類問題，只是我不常在這裡說而已。

也和別人沒甚麼關係，不用好奇了。

假民主

有時真的很無奈。

又要扮好人的事事來問我，我說一個中聽的答案，就歡天喜地大事宣傳自己很尊重我般；然而我說了不合意的答案，雖然是跟著不做，卻又要跟我說其實不需要問過我。即表面上很尊重，但實際上又不滿。差點忍不住爆粗的我，認為閣下若是會反咬我一下，大可一開始就不要問，勿是要假民主，然後就來說大可不用問。

還有，我說若果買A就一定要買B的話，那就兩個都暫且不要買了。閣下來跟我說已要了A，那不是騙我落搭，難道是無可奈何？還要生我氣說我好說你騙我？有沒有搞錯呀？閣下一直說要買A我可是半點反對也沒說哦，只是說了一句「又買呀」，還要由得閣下在別人面前說得好像我諸般阻撓過一樣。我已經丁點也不分辯了，只是在閣下一刻間來突然要再花數百大元時提出反對，還要背上「很惡」和「不合情理」的罪名，事後閣下還要說毫不明白我幹嗎要這樣。

真吹漲。