大魔王拓實

其實我滿喜歡拓實的，雖然他還是出軌了，但基於他和八子結婚不是因著很多的愛情，這也是無可厚非的。八子對拓實的愛，其實也是和拓實對八子的差不多吧，大家在各取所需。我相信拓實是愛八子的，但許多男人對愛的概念很模糊，也不明白愛與專一是有關係的，或者拓實對八子的愛還未夠使他發現要"只愛一個人"和"只忠於一個人"，但同樣八子對拓實也是浮游不定吧。女孩子不是很愛一個人也多數不會出軌的，但沒有別人不等於就很愛很愛一個男人。拓實在不知道孩子是自己的還是伸夫的時就立刻決定娶八子(雖然那個女最後的而且確是拓實的)，還體貼八子和寶寶的需要，有幾個男人做得到呢？

我是想他們有好結局的，但我也相信他們最後是分開收場。不過說分開其實也有難度吧，拓實是很執著的人，八子也需要依賴，所以我想可能要他死掉才沒那麼不自然的分離(笑)。娜娜是一定會掛掉的角色吧？!

更木劍八

Q版的劍八呢~八千流則甚麼時候也像Q版的。。。後面的朽木君可不用理會。。。

又Reskin了!

總是一個樣子的Blog太無聊了，結果我又Reskin了。今次是粉紅色，襯一襯八千流的頭髮嘛~

最喜歡這個Blog，就是可以隨意create template了。。。

十二月三十日之箴言

• "憧憬"是距離"理解"最遠的一種感情。
• 我勸你不要太虛張聲勢，這樣只會顯得你軟弱。

-- 藍染

想起了一個人

想起那個這些年來愛過最痛苦的人。

有一本日記簿是關於這個人的，我告訴過莫凌峻千萬不要看，因為連我自己也不敢再翻看。那是一本很痛苦的日記，一本我無法碰的日記，曾幾何時指尖觸到也會冒汗。

這些年來我都沒有翻過，現在我已記不起那種痛了。從頭至尾都是我的錯，與這個人無尤。不知道這個人現在怎麼了呢？有另一半了嗎？還在繼續讀書嗎？還是做工作呢？做甚麼呢？

來了八年，沒見八年了。

八千流

這是八千流啦。。。我也很想吊在劍八背後。。。

Hisoka

突然好想貼Hisoka的型仔圖，記得我和Le Le也被剛洗完澡沒有Gel頭的Hisoka迷暈了。。。

Christmas Day

這兩天send了好幾個"Merry Christmas" message，今年醫生竟先send message給我，真感動，但告訴我一個恐怖的消息 --- 三天前有女朋友了。。。真傷感，醫生也有人要了。。。老頂就今早睡醒send了我一個message，不過我昨晚十時就send了給他，但那時他好像已睡了，難得他可以睡覺好的。

老媽老爸到現在還沒有打給我，怕是忘了這個遺在紐西蘭的親親女兒吧，真可憐；幸好還有大Mel和hun hun。。。hun hun午後就一整天也和我在一起，早上則各有各去崇拜嘛。我們也沒甚麼好做，在家打打機，玩玩Neopet，看看Bleach，洗衣服，乾衣服，餵大Mel，帶帶狗。。。又一天了。

大Mel近來迷上了吃貓糧，可能已忘了自己是一頭犬吧，我也真的買了些貓糧給她搗狗糧一起吃。。。

老虎機真是害人不錢，hun hun昨天一口氣輸掉了三萬NP，虧他那麼不好運的。。。今天我唯有幫他做書籍販賣生意賺會些本金，再賭輸我才不理他了。應該學學我，輸5000那天就收手，那就輸極有個譜了。。。男人，賭性重也~幸好他有自知之明，不會賭真錢。。。如果不是這樣，以我們倆這等氣數早就要乞食了!

唔唔。。。阿劍和八千流是我最愛的唷。。。戀次其實也好可愛吧~~

紀念一個人

記得其實是我認識KK在先的。那時我五年級，他六年級，我們一起搭輕鐵放學，一起嬉戲，他是唯一一個和我們這群靈愛生玩的光明生。我不知道他的名字，只會叫他將做"橡根槍"，因為他常用那雪條棍橡根槍射我。。。

後來祖祖喜歡了一個男孩子，後來跟他走在一起。她給我看他的照片，我覺得他很熟口面，但又想不起是誰。直到有一天我搭輕鐵，才意外地想起來。

生活圈子不同，我沒有和他保持聯絡，但偶爾仍會從祖祖口中聽聞有關於他的事情。聽到這個消息真的很遺憾，不敢相信這樣的事竟在我的朋友身上發生。

祖祖，不要傷心了。

"還記得 我們什麼時候認識的嗎
我中一 你中二時 因為大家都是社團田徑還有羽毛球隊 一起練習而認識的
你跟我就像兄妹一樣 每天不打打鬧鬧不行
就因為這樣 我就慢慢喜歡你了 (其實一點都不慢)
而因為一次我在書桌上寫下 : i love k.k
(你的簡稱)
讓中一中二的同學都知道我喜歡你的事 (我顧意的)
而你呢 卻沒什麼反應 就跟平常一樣
這讓我很生氣 要我直接告訴你 :
我愛你
可是 你卻回我 : 我初戀還在 還不想交往
哈 可是 你沒有顧意不理我 所以
我也厚臉皮的每天在你左右
就這樣過了幾個月 有一天你跟我說 : 我好像喜歡你了
我的中一暑假
就是你的一句話開始了
你不想讓家人知道 所以我們都沒有像現在的年輕人 每天講電話 逛街
只有星期六 日
你去舅舅家的時候會打給我
而且你比較不喜歡在學校公開交往的事 (其實每個人都知道)
所以都是你有你的生活 我有我的朋友
可是 你都很鬼馬
會顧意擦身而過 其實是為了碰我的手
我還搬去姨媽家 好讓我每天可以跟你同一班車 借口是 : 姨媽家比較安靜 可以讀書 (笑)
可是
我們的關係也在之後一年的暑假結束了
是我還年幼 沒有好好珍惜你
我知道你很氣我 所以我在中三選學校的時候也沒有選你之後去的學校
我中五畢業那年
我跟你關係突然變好 而且再一起了
可是維持不到一個月我就去台灣工作
回來以後 我們還有一去吃宵夜
我不開心你會開車帶我去安靜的地方聊天
生日會打給我 問我老人斑有沒有變多 新年會來我家放煙火 ...
你不開心我也會陪你聊天光
還記得有一次
你哭著打給我 我還寫了一首歌給你 為你加油 (你說我白痴!)
你做錯事我會哭著教訓你 你說過 沒有朋友會為你而哭 所以好開心
可是不要再看到我哭
我知道你是一個很好的男生 可是女朋友卻沒有一個會珍惜你
上年八月 生日沒有你的來電 (可惡
你忘了嗎)
九月你生日打不到給你 (電話掉了嗎)
聖誕 新年也找不到你 (我開始膽心了)
一直找你去吃宵夜 可是 都找不到
...
直到昨天 一個學姐告訴我
你 ...
你去年三月開車回家的時候 跟一台貨車相撞
你...
你走了
我不相信
馬上去yahoo search去年的新聞
可是 ...可是 ...
你沒有跟我說再見就走了
你知道我有多傷心
有多心痛
你知道你還有好多事情還沒做
你還沒有得到所有幸福就走了
我知道你從來就不是一個幸運的人
可是你沒有放棄
可是...可是...
你還沒有拿到我給你的萬花筒就走了...
不過
就算你在哪
我都會愛你的

萬花筒
看到天空出現彩虹
無盡大海就是我的未來
眼中一切也變美好 萬花筒會一直為我轉動
你卻看到黑雲飄過
海中巨浪也把你帶走
遙遠的孤島在呼喚 無助的心跟黑夜結合了
誰說現實生活很簡單
誰說童話故事會騙人
混在一起不可能?! 看到白雪公主才相信
魔鬼也出現了
天空在我眼前把你吞蝕 想抓住的 差太遠了
伸手觸摸不到遠處的你
唇在發抖 淚已狂流
我恨現在無力相助 只好為你禱告
總有一天把你帶走
給你一個多姿多采的萬花筒"
written by Jill

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愛情

幸福一定是快樂的，當你切實感到自己是幸福的話；
愛情卻可能和快樂無緣。
我深信，愛情是有點點失落，點點痛心的，
愛上一個人，就是把自己放進隨時會心碎的情況下；
幸福，卻是將自己溶化在蜜糖中。。。
噯~這不是一個好的比喻，
因為太甜會生澀，唯幸福等如恰到好處的美味。

卻細心的想了想，還是選擇愛情。
寧願自己的生活像檸檬茶，
有愛情的甜、酸和苦，也不要完全的幸福美滿。

有一個人給我"掛念到恐懼，疑慮到心碎"，
未必是幸福，但一定是叫我欲罷不能的愛情。
我想要的，原是這個。 或者心底裡，我享受愛情，多於幸福。。。

很開心的一天。。。

今天很開心，因為加人工呢~
其實我之前就知道會有人工加，
但那時不知加多少。

加多少不是怎麼重要，
重要的是公司對自己的肯定。

Teddy, Monkey and Donkey

I thought of these three guys recently, quite miss the time we were all in uni. I think we are the best SE group forever, our spirit, our friendship, the time we worked hard together, and the time we had fun. Teddy, Money and Donkey, are our best representatives.

I'm the fortunate one. I meet best people all the time, in college, in uni, or at work. Probably God thinks I trust people too easily, and so he surrounds me with nice people. I cannot live with complicated social relationship.

頭痛三日。。。

三日了。

今天算是好了很多，至少午後才有，也不太痛。我想是因為膊頭痛所致，是時候去浸溫泉了。。。職業病還真多的。。。

Leonardo da Vinci Exhibition

沒有幾個人知道，其實我對Renaissance時期的事物極有興趣，包括theories，drawings，sculptures，inventions等等，這些都是我看到會雙眼發亮的東西；尤其崇拜Leonardo da Vinci，這個前無古人後無來者的天才。這次Museum有The da Vinci Machines的Exhibition，完全無辦法抗拒的誘惑，今天便和Nicholas去了。 Nicholas當然沒有我那麼瘋狂，但這次"開正佢個範"，有很多Physics和Mechanics的東西，他也被吸引吧。我們坐在大電視前一個小時有多呢。。。

最後我還要買了紀念品走 --- 一本 Leonardoda Vinci's Machines；其實我更想帶da Vinci's book走，如果我可以出$450的話。。。大大本的da Vinci's book，真的很吸引。 一個甚麼都懂甚麼都精的人，500年前已想出這許多東西，我找不到另一個能和他比較的人了。如果我的腦袋有他的一半，我現在就不會坐在這裡吧!所以我尤其崇拜他，看著那些仿造機械模型，我想地上的智慧終極也是如此了。

IRB Player of the Year

Carter tops night of awards for New Zealand rugby

28/11/2005

IRB.com

Award winning Dan Carter A fantastic year for New Zealand rugby has been topped off with a range of awards at the IRB Awards in Paris. All Black first five-eighths Daniel Carter was named IRB Player of the Year, the All Blacks were named Team of the Year and coach Graham Henry picked up the Coach of the Year award. All Black Isaia Toeava was named Under 19 player of the year, Orene Ai’i Sevens player of the year and Farah Palmer IRB International Women's Personality of the Year. The All Blacks have been the outstanding team in 2005 having won 11 of their 12 Test matches. In June they were too strong for the British and Irish Lions winning the series three Tests to none. They are the reigning Philips Tri Nations Champions and completed the Grand Slam tour of the UK and Ireland to finish the year at number one in the IRB World Rankings. At the helm of the team has been Canterbury’s Daniel Carter who has played at a consistently high level throughout the year. “Over the last 12 months, Dan has made an outstanding transition from the centres to first five-eighth. He has played some exceptional games and he’s also a high percentage goal-kicker”, said his coach Graham Henry. Henry, who has masterminded the All Blacks’ success after stints with Wales and the British Lions, added, “We’ve been very fortunate to have a chance at history this year. To win the New Zealand versus Lions Series, a Bledisloe Cup and Tri Nations Series, and then have a shot at a Grand Slam is very special. The players and management deserve credit for that.” Other nominees for Player of the Year were fellow All Black team mates Richie McCaw and skipper Tana Umaga, and Springbok duo Victor Matfield and Brian Habana. New Zealand beat 2005 Six Nations Grand Slam Champions winners Wales for the team title while Henry pipped Wales’ Mike Ruddock for the Coach of the Year. The prestigious ceremony at Pavillon d'Armenonville was attended by some of the great names of rugby's past and present including IRB Awards panellists Gavin Hastings, Michael Jones, Fabien Galthie and John Eales, British Lions Manager Bill Beaumont and former All Black captain Colin Meads. The IRB Awards also recognise the future stars of the Game and Australia’s Tatafu Polota-Nau, who was one of the leading players at the 2005 IRB Under 21 World Championship, was named IRB Under 21 Player of the Year. He went on to make his Test debut as a replacement hooker against England in November. IRB Under 19 Player of the Year, All Black Isaia Toeava of New Zealand, made his Test debut against Scotland at the weekend. The award for IRB Sevens Team of the Year went to 2005 Sevens Rugby World Cup Champions Fiji, which also won the World Games in Germany. The Sevens Player of the Year was New Zealand’s Orene Ai’i who spearheaded his side’s march to another IRB Sevens series title in 2005. IRB International Women's Personality of the Year, Black Ferns hooker Farah Palmer, has won two Women’s Rugby World Cups as captain, has a Doctorate in Physical Education and lectures in sports management. The Vernon Pugh Award for Distinguished service went to former Wallaby Peter Crittle. Following his playing career as a Wallaby between 1962 and 1967 he went on to become a prominent administrator in Australian rugby. The IRB Chairman’s Award was presented to Sir Tasker Watkins V.C, G.B.E., D.L. in recognition of his distinguished career as a rugby administrator. Sir Tasker served a record 11 years as President of the Welsh Rugby Union, was knighted in 1971 and is currently the Union’s Honorary Vice Life Patron. Robert Antonin was awarded the IRB Development Award in recognition of his work in developing rugby throughout the world. A former coach, IRB Regional Development Manager and National Technical Director of the French Rugby Federation his expertise has been sought all over the world from Argentina to Romania where he is now working within the Romanian Rugby Federation. Former French forward, the enigmatic Jean Pierre Rives was presented with the Spirit of Rugby Award. The blonde haired flanker became synonymous with spirit and courage on the field in the 1970s and was widely admired outside France. These days he is better known as a sculptor but to this day he is still one France’s most capped flankers with 59 appearances. He was captain of France on 34 occasions. List of Award winners IRB International Player of the Year: Daniel Carter (New Zealand) IRB International Team of the Year: New Zealand IRB International Coach of the Year: Graham Henry (New Zealand) IRB International U19 Player of the Year: Isaia Toeava (New Zealand) IRB International U21 Player of the Year: Tatafu Polota-Nau (Australia) IRB International Sevens Team of the Year: Fiji IRB International Sevens Player of the Year: Orene Ai’i (New Zealand) Spirit of Rugby Award: Jean Pierre Rives Vernon Pugh Award for Distinguished Service: Peter Crittle IRB Referee Award for Distinguished Service: Paddy O’Brien IRB International Women's Personality of the Year: Farah Palmer IRB Development Award: Robert Antonin IRB Chairman's Award: Sir Tasker Watkins V.C., G.B.E, D.L