My secrets

At last I have split myself into four expressions. This is how I can keep the balance, and my secrets.

My secrets.

Occasionally I have one or two secrets, but I tend to express them as a non-secret way. Kind of like Dexter talking about his urge of killing in the NA group:

Dexter Morgan: I'm Dexter and I'm not sure what I am.
Narcotics Anonymous Group: Hi, Dexter.
Dexter Morgan: I just know there's something dark in me and I hide it. I certainly don't talk about it, but it's there always, this Dark Passenger. And when he's driving, I feel alive, half sick with the thrill of complete wrongness. I don't fight him, I don't want to. He's all I've got. Nothing else could love me, not even... especially not me. Or is that just a lie the Dark Passenger tells me? Because lately there are these moments when I feel connected to something else... someone. It's like the mask is slipping and things... people... who never mattered before are suddenly starting to matter. It scares the hell out of me.

Oh my addiction is not drugs or killing, of course. Come on, don't be silly.