Sometimes I realize how evil I am, but I cannot give up my evil thoughts. So I keep telling myself I should just not care and ignore, in order to get myself out of the evilness. You said it may take time. My concern is, I may not willing to do it no matter how long time has passed in the future.
"You looked beyond our faults and saw our needs." - I am always thinking about this, and imagining I should have been attempting to do the same thing. However my heart is weak and my soul is vulnerable: I am standing right there staring at the faults and cannot see any needs. Videre nolo: I am not willing to see. I do not want to see.
Culpas solum videre possum.
How evil I am, and how unwilling to be less evil I am.
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