Grandma

Grandma's cancer has come back, this time it is in the liver. Parents are still coming back tomorrow, but will be expected to go back to HK again at any time. At first I thought of going back as well if something really happens, then I started thinking whether I should really go back or not. If she is not there anymore, what's my point of going back? For the funeral? If I am trying to see her more and make her happy, I should do that more often when she is alive, that's why I've gone back in October once I knew she got cancer. If she is not there anymore, going back to HK for a funeral will not please her. Of course I am not saying that I should not go back, but I question about the importance of my participation after she's gone. I would rather show my love when she is there.

A sad week.